It has been awhile since i last posted on my Blog...It has been a crazy few weeks. For starters my baby girl turned 2!!! Ahhh!!!
Here she is at Chuck E cheese on her birthday
It was a hard and sad day to know my little girl is growing up :( God has blessed me with the BEST daughter a mama could have, she is more then I could have ever imagined I would have one day. It seems like just yesterday I was holding her in my arms at the hospital scared to death of having such a huge responsibility of raising and teaching this Gift that God has trusted me with. Being a mommy has taught me so much and shown me that my Love grows so much every day for my little girl.
I remember when we moved to Hawaii when Cristiana was just 4 weeks old, having a new born and having my husband leave for training just two weeks after we arrived. I remember thinking I was going to fail at this mommy thing because I knew NOTHING about babies and i knew no one out here and had no family around. But looking back I am glad I had that opportunity, it taught me to be confidant in my role as a mom and to have to make new friends in a new place. One of the hardest things I have ever done stepping out of my comfort zone but since being here I have met so many moms all from different places that have each shown me and helped me be a better mom. Being a wife and mom in the military has its ups and downs but we are given the opportunity to make new friends from all over the world and at times i wish we would get back into the civilian life I am happy for the opportunities we have been given.
Now back to Cristiana...Not only have we celebrated her birthday but AJ is teaching her how to swim :D She is a little fish in water and so far is doing an AWESOME job and catching on quick!! We have also FINALLY decided to get a zoo membership, since we always are going their(it is cristiana's favorite place) we figured we should have gotten the membership awhile ago. Her favorite animals at the zoo are the monkeys, she could watch them all day long if she had the chance to:)
Along with all that we have decided to enroll Cristiana in daycare..I felt that it would be good for her to be around kids her own age and to be able to enjoy being away from mommy and little bit. I had a HARD time being able to let my baby go :( I know I know it sounds ridiculous, I mean come on it is only 4 hours a day 2 days a week!! But she is my baby and she is with me 24/7 and I am a big worry wort!! Last night I hardly slept because i knew that she would be going to daycare today, I was thinking all kinds of things. MY wonderful hubby knowing me all to well knew something was wrong last night and he rolled over in bed and asked me "You are worried about Cristiana going tomorrow aren't you" I told him yes and that what if she gets out while the kids are all out side playing and no one notices??? He chuckled and reassured me that he doubts that will ever happen and that I needed to relax and believe that everything would be ok. I could have come up with a thousand reasons why I thought she shouldn't go but we had already paid and enrolled her and I needed to stop worrying. The next morning was a sad day for me when we arrived at the center i told myself I was not going to cry that i needed to be strong for Cristiana. As we go in and as soon as we get to her classroom Cristiana takes off and starts playing with all the other kids and totally forgets about AJ and I(at least that how I felt lol) AJ calls her over and tells her to say good bye to mama. She quikly comes over to me hugs and kisses me and says bye mama and leaves to go play. I was so shocked this was not the outcome i had foreseen in my head! I was for sure thinking she was going to cause a scene and cry and not want me to leave since that is what she usually does if she is left with someone else. I didn't know weather to be sad that she didn't cry and want me to stay or sad that my little girl is growing up and wanting to be more independent ?? But as soon as I got home I didn't know what to do with myself I guess I was happy that she didn't cry because it made me feel a lot better knowing that she was going to have fun. Whoo the first day was the hardest I guess for this mama. When we picked her up we were told she was great and didn't cry at all and participated in all the activities. Thank you Lord for helping Cristiana be a brave little girl when we dropped her off so this mama didn't have to leave crying ha. Im in trouble when she goes to pre school and then kindergarten OY VEY I am never gonna want her to leave me. And to end all this...why do they have to grow up???
Here she is on her first day of Daycare :D
